Just a quick one tonight. Heard the little one in her bed tonight singing, I Am A Child of God. Here's a sample of what I heard... (please forgive my attempt at the baby talk spelling!)
"I a chi-ad a God. (Child of God)
He send me heew. (Sent me here)
Has give me a earf-we home. (given me an earthly home)
And pawents kinda deew" (parents kind and dear... Not just "kinda dear")
So stinkin cute!
I love her!
Monday, January 24, 2011
Thursday, January 20, 2011
Can It Be So Long Since I've Last Written?
It always amazes me how much time passes between my posts. It's not because I don't have a sincere desire to write... I think about it all the time! There are many times I don't have the time/peace/quiet to sit and write and, very recently, many times that I'm afraid what I write will be misconstrued. (I don't know about you other bloggers - but this happens to me a lot!)
Recently it was suggested to me that I waste far too much time worrying about what others think of me. This caught me a little off guard, as I've normally been one who doesn't give a rip what others think of me. However, in talking further with this person, I learned she was right.
I have spent a great deal of time trying to show certain individuals that I'm not the terrible person they think I am. It didn't matter what others have said to the contrary - this particular group of people dislikes me and blames me for things not in my control - and I have let them get the better of me. Now I must work hard to rid myself of this toxic thinking and stop trying to impress people who do not have any interest in the well being of me or my family.
This whole things was driven home again within the last week, when a very serious decision had to be made by DH. Although it was not my decision, these people blamed me, called me names, and falsely accused me of terrible "atrocities" - again.
The irony? In the end, everyone wanted the same thing - but they all had to believe it was their idea before it could be implemented.
The perk? I've not felt this kind of peace in a very long time. I'm ever so grateful that DH made the choice he did and I hope he will feel the same level of peace about it that I do.
Now I am working on relearning things I'd forgotten... like, for example, that those who try to control others through threats and lies are really very sad people.
(YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE - AND SO DO I!)
And, if I let them push me to do things I don't want/need/have to - it is ME that lives with that consequence - not them.
I hope and pray that DH begins to understand this too as we head in this new direction, and these same people try to make him regret his choice. He needs to be supported in this decision. Actually, we both do. So if you're the praying kind, could you say a little one for us?
Three Things I'm Grateful For
Recently it was suggested to me that I waste far too much time worrying about what others think of me. This caught me a little off guard, as I've normally been one who doesn't give a rip what others think of me. However, in talking further with this person, I learned she was right.
I have spent a great deal of time trying to show certain individuals that I'm not the terrible person they think I am. It didn't matter what others have said to the contrary - this particular group of people dislikes me and blames me for things not in my control - and I have let them get the better of me. Now I must work hard to rid myself of this toxic thinking and stop trying to impress people who do not have any interest in the well being of me or my family.
This whole things was driven home again within the last week, when a very serious decision had to be made by DH. Although it was not my decision, these people blamed me, called me names, and falsely accused me of terrible "atrocities" - again.
The irony? In the end, everyone wanted the same thing - but they all had to believe it was their idea before it could be implemented.
The perk? I've not felt this kind of peace in a very long time. I'm ever so grateful that DH made the choice he did and I hope he will feel the same level of peace about it that I do.
Now I am working on relearning things I'd forgotten... like, for example, that those who try to control others through threats and lies are really very sad people.
(YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE - AND SO DO I!)
And, if I let them push me to do things I don't want/need/have to - it is ME that lives with that consequence - not them.
I hope and pray that DH begins to understand this too as we head in this new direction, and these same people try to make him regret his choice. He needs to be supported in this decision. Actually, we both do. So if you're the praying kind, could you say a little one for us?
Three Things I'm Grateful For
- My support circle (my kids, my mom) has been amazing this last little while. Thank you for loving me through this last little bit.
- I'm feeling a little more like myself this week. Finally!
- DH loves me!
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